im back #

well.....
sudah lama ku tidak meng-update blog ku ini..
ehe : =)

berita terkini iaitu saya sudah kembali ke ibu negeri tercinta

SABAH,  Negeri Dibawah Bayu

yeahhh...

im so freaking happy
boleh spend time with all my family members
im glad!

hehe..
mode : happy belaka!

LOVE IT ! ( Linkin Park - Waiting For The End [Official Video] (2010)

ATTENTION to whom it may concern #

Children nowadays ( aging between 15-20 years old )

The children now love luxury.
They have bad manners, contempt for authority,
they show disrespect to their elders....
They no longer rise when elders enter the room.
They contradict their parents,
chatter before company, gobble up dainties at the table, cross their
legs, and are tyrants over their teachers.


The young people of today think of nothing but themselves. They have
no reverence for parents or old age.
They are impatient of all restraint.
They talk as if they alone knew everything and what passes
for wisdom with us is foolishness with them.
As for girls, they are forward, immodest and unwomanly in speech, behaviour and dress.

I'm afraid I have to agree with the above.

L.O.L #

Friends of mine pointing their finger to the very romantic couple..and opened their mouth; "Gorgeous lady! but her boyfriend? totally ugly! The man's face as the face bombing victims!" I kept silent..they didn't watch their tongue..but I'm thinking the same thing too actually! haha.. but in different way~ It's fuckin unfair! I mean, why those men who do not have a handsome face can easily has a beautiful woman?! I'M NOT GOOD LOOKING TOO! but why I don't have any? This world are bloody cruel~! LoL

Ok, that statement is a joke. ;p Don't take it seriously. But it's normally happened. I mean the circumstance of someone which a beautiful or handsome paired with their partner the less beautiful or handsome. And about the jealousy thingy as well. That's normal as human being.

So I would like to hear your comment about the jealousy thingy and the circumstance mentioned above. I'm pretty sure you experience this before. ツ

saya.gembira #

I have been through a total Great day
With my hubby, adli, ayu, mama & abah
Been out with them since last saturday.
Abah came to shah alam and fetch me out

Yeah, it was great actually

simply sum it all up,
Shah alam - kuala lumpur ( masjid india, sunway piramid, sunway lagoon, sogo, and lowyat plaza )
And lastly. Cameron highlands!
That is so unplam ok
But anyhow, cameron highlands was so goddamn cool

I'm total in love with "the cold air condition" place
That's what I've thought of all

Yess...
Of all this, thank you abah & mama.
Love both of you owez

<3 cHeRaDLi

to be fall / to be built ? #

Some friend of mine say that the most beautiful Love is the Love that you fall in..

And some friend of mine say that the most strongest Love is the Love that you build..

Fall in Love means you caught in Love with him/her (and he/she also)...

Build your Love means you build your Love feeling after you have the relationship..

There are so many examples nowadays that show us this 2 Love type (the other will be uncounted in this topic..) or maybe yourself...
What is the ROMANCE different between these two type??
Which one did suit you or your prefer??

The Beautiful Love or,

The Strongest Love....

think. for her #

i think no one been in this situation before... now tell me....

if ure in a long distance relationship... n both of u have planned ur wedding bells.. n u are there... ready to be home.. to be wth ur love one.. suddenly.. shock by a lotsa stories n proof... that he flirt wth others... n yet.. u pretend n keep the silence.. coz u dun wan any chaos while ure far away.. u juz hope that everythng will be okay as soon u come back n continue ur wedding.. while face all the lies ur loved one told u every day while ure far.. u know it everytime he lied... coz u love him!

when u pack all ur things n move back.. n he fetch u from the airport.. u still keep ur heart bleed every beat.. out of it.. u've been taking in ur anger, tears & sadness alone for 51 days.. 51 days of hell! its not easy to write & describe the pain...

then the 46 days u're in a mess.. coz sumone juz told u about his affair which u knew it before... n this sumone go n tell ur bf that u know.. its 5 days away... n u're home...

then..the 57 days... u burst into tears.. keep talking.. NO NO NO! guess wat happen? ur bf make his affair pregnant!! n yet.. ur bf told u that he will never let u go....between love towards u... n responsible towards her... n wanna marry both...

u're an angel... The Angel Of Tears.... what will u do? gimme answer except for leaving him.

n u? are not u anymore.... too much pain... too much misery.. n u in a dead end since ur marriage is around the corner!

the don'ts #

Well hell ya
Today I've bought a new blackberry battery
Which had cost me rm180
Pfttt!
Daymm..
So to all the blackberry users,
These is one of the don'ts that you may be advice not to do it

" Recharge battery life in more than 8hours "

Do not leave your blackberry charge too long
Otherwise, it will end up like mine
Which the battery oredy "bengkak"
So take a note on this.
Thank you :)

the reason, i love you

I love you because you make me happy I love you because you make me feel safe and secure I love your smile I love the way you say my name I love the look in your eyes when you tell me you love me And how you laugh at me when I do something stupid, when others would put me down. I love the fact that when I'm around you I can be myself and not worry about what you may think of me, because I know you love me for who I am. No matter what my faults may be. I love being able to wake up with you by my side... It makes my days better At night I love watching you sleep, hearing you take each breath, and feeling your heart beat with the palm of my hand... reality hits that you are not a dream YOU ARE MINE. I love the way you wrap your arms around me and hold me really tight, like there is no tomorrow And I love the way I feel when your lips barely touch mine for a kiss, the love and emotions that go through me at that moment are unexplainable. I love your laugh I love hearing your voice I love that you get along with my family and friend, no matter how much you dislike them, or who they are. And hearing you tell me your stories, you could tell them to me a thousand times, and I will never get tired of them, because they are a part of you. But the main reason I love you is because..... You are you!

i hate ! yess i am..

i hate

 # people that double crosses me @ backstabbing

 # people who talks shytt behind me.( kalau benda betul ta kesah jugak, tapi ini semua FITNAH !! )

 # people misused with my kindness

 # people talk more shytt about themselves its like "you re the man OR you re the f**cking biatch"

 # people disregards me, myself

 # dishonest with me

 # and what most important is DISRESPECT me ,disrespect is tidak menghormati saya

so get it clear kiddo !

for now, you are nothing but just little dirt 

and please, JANGAN BANGGA DIRI SANGAT.

ok ?

 

and dont push me over my own limits

otherwise, you will be regret for it

go for your own real STATUSES dont FAKE it

and dont ever and ever mimic or act like you know everything in this world

heyy.. menyampah mak nok ! 

saya.happy

yeah !

sehari lagi

saya akan kembali ke kedah

hati berkobar_kobar

menanti hari itu dengan penuh kesabaran

yeah ! 

hati ini

tidak sabar

untuk berjumpa dengan keluarga baru

dari abg amer dan kakak diyana

cahaya mata pertama

dan

cucu sulung

dalam family ini

MUHAMMAD ARRYAN SAIFULLAH BIN MUHAMMAD AMIR

comel !

sangat comel !

:))

AtTenTion please!

When we are far from our own hometown
Leaving our family and friends behind
It was Not done without any reason
But its was mainly about our own future
And Few of them done it
Its all about concerning for a better life ahead

So, while we were in another place which was not our hometown
it doesn't mean that we have to forget everything
or its was Not meant to be culture shock neither
It always about trying to ADAPT a new life,new living courses,even new friends
In fact, there s much to learn upon our life
And there is more to learn to be sure

Life s gettin harder
So think forwards, not backwards
Still our culture,natives and customs wouldn't be fade away
And I'm sure, it will always kepts in my mind and thoughts

Always
Always do.

I'm a pure sabahan girl, whose trying to adapt her new life in new places before this.
And finally, I've made it. Happily.

Have a little faith in ourselves.
Trust me, I've done it

And thanks to both of my parents,
Bernard Hwa & Winnie Kok for always supporting me here.

Love ya mummy and daddy <3

BLACKBERRY

Yeah..
Blogging just thru my blackberry 9700
Ain't it is so easy for us
To Do anything that we desired with

Along with the blackberry internet services
Connects us to the WORLD
Total useful gadget
Specially to the teenagers and so to the folks
:)

People like it!
And loved it

Own one?
Add my bb pin, please!
But only selected people(friends) will be approve out
Yeah.

Ya, saya rindu dia

Hari ini,
Kembali ke shah alam
Setelah dua minggu berada di kedah beraya bersama cinta dan keluarga tersayang
Dengan perasaan dan hati yang berat

Aduhai shah alam :)

Pada malam itu, si dia dan keluarga datang menghantar saya ke station bas shahab perdana
Hati girang
Melihat sekeluarga bahagia bersama
Dan
Hati sedih
Bila terpaksa meninggalkan meraka semua

Tidak mengapa
Kerna saya akan kembali lagi
Tidak sabar menyambut baby pertama dalam keluarga!
Abang amir dan kak diana

Mode : happy + rinduuu :')

thank you.

i wanna say hi

to the Johore-rians

who loved to view my simple but kinda like fascinating blog
ahaha!

a stalker maybe,

or my blogger fans indeed,

or maybe someone that interested to my freaking awesome lifestyle ahead

anyhow.

Thank You

:)

oh my.

He's cute.

total
freaking
absolutely

CUTE

my goodness.
thats the one of the reason
<3

come to momma once again..
heat up the beat
just like before

smile.... :))
<3 <3 <3

yess !!

the truth soon will reveal

im waiting for it

im not scared.

yess im not

but i will scare the hell out of you

i promise

for it

for you

thats the payback for what you have messed up with me

wait for it

ok ?

stupid moron kiddo.

Raya is here.. and soon it will gone. again!

hey hey hey..  its time.. raya is here. 

and i was about to celebrate it back here in alor star, Kedah.. with the family of my boyfy! jeez..

so thats it. we re all goin back to adli's kampung, which it was located in Pida, Jitra. but this year raya were seems to be so gloomy, silence.. not that meriah compares to last raya. 

a little prayer to arwah tok wan, abdul hamid.. passed away this early January.. leaving all his children and grandchildren behind.. missed you so much tok wan..

well, its kinda different that before.. a day before raya.. all of the family were still in alor star.. we kinda gathering and prepared to visit arwah's grave here in Tanah perkuburan masjid Albukhary.

and thats it.. Raya day to be celebrate~!!

HAPPY EID !!!A

* Sigh

oh my....
my laziness came and haunt me again
not for once, but quite few times
well, its time for me to start a new post for my blog for sure. 
there it goes..


*sigh....


ive been sighing quite a lot of times..
something stuck in my head
and the hell i know what


pheww


go away!


time for me to focus on my next to do list
that would be goin back to KEDAH
yeepiee! 


off outa this hell, and goin to have blast on this coming raya.. cant wait! 


wink*

will do, always

My beloved ones, bestfriend, bestmate and soulmate..

Is....

The lovely guy I had in my life now..

Is the guy that I've loved the most

The one who willing to shared everything in my life

Arguing, misunderstnding, would be part of our relationship

But its normal

Its a very normal relation between human being

That's the risk of being in love

So will Take it easily, thou sometimes it hurt me a lot

But.....

Nothing could ever possibly apart us

And no one would possibly break the love that we've build together.

The guy that I adored most

The guy that I loved the most

Named by ADLI ABDUL HALIM

Love you b..

Will always do.

P/s : I love you. Sorry for all the past mistake done by me

# You lost me

I am done

Smoking gun

We've lost it all

The love is gone

She has won

Now its no fun

We've lost it all

The love is gone

And we had magic

And this is tragic

You couldn't keep your hands to yourself

I feel like our world's been infected,

And somehow you left me neglected

We've found our lives been changed

Babe, you lost me

And we tried

Oh, how we cried

Oh, we lost ourselves

The love has died

And we had magic

And this is tragic

You couldn't keep your hands to yourself

Oh, I feel like our world's been infected

And somehow you left me neglected

We've found our lives been changed

Cause babe, you lost me

Now I know you're sorry

And we were sweet

Oh, but you chose lust when you deceived me

And you'll regret it, but it's too late

How can I ever trust you again?

I feel like our world's been infected,

And somehow you left me neglected

We've found our lives been changed

Oh babe, you lost me

att biatch,....

hey there biatch..


im hoping for you to read my precious word for you and your deadmate..
well, first of all...
i dont really know what the F is your problem with me again...
but i bet thats because of your jealousness upon me right?


my goodness....
its been past 6 months gone.
but youre still a pathetic young lady i ever know..
and i pretty sure that you lived your life just for the noob guy aka your beloved immature boyfriend..


oh come on!! 
sesak arr saya tengok... 
you re being sucha pathetic woman ever you know...


my word for you guys...
both of you go and fuckdap to hell ok
and please... 


GO AWAY!!??


saya ne bukan kepulown sangat nak berkawan dgn kawan2 korg tue...
i dont give a f**cking damn bout you guys thou.
hell waiting for both of you NOOB COUPLE! 


SYR the biatch

Hoo Ray!

Weekend is here....


AGAIN !!


yay... 


nothing to be done.. just puasa.


and i loike it~!


:DDDD

Mengapakah....

Apalah maumu kasih, kau pilih diriku di dalam hidupmu

Nyatanya kulihat ini, tak bisa kau coba untuk setia

Sudah cukuplah sudah, kumemberikan waktu

Kau selalu tak bisa mencoba untuk setia...

Yang selalu kuinginkan, yang selalu kunanti

Kau coba untuk mengerti, apalah arti mencinta

Dan harus kau sadari, bila ingin bersamaku

Jangan coba kau ingkari, cobalah untuk setia...

Masihkah aku diinginkan, masihkah aku didambakan

Masihkah ada waktu untukmu bersamamu, akankah kujalani hidup...

Dan harus kau sadari, bila ingin bersamaku

Jangan coba kau ingkari, cobalah untuk setia... 

once again

im back again!
well ive been thru a busy weekend, now im back to be a blogger.


basically, the month of ramadhan has arrived.
so.. i wish a happy fasting month to all my muslims friends. 
and so to my beloved ones, adli and his lovely family here in kedah.


eventually, me myself also puasa. 
well..practice makes perfect right! 
i felt so happy i can join all the muslims puasa. the flame of fasting were so flammable. haha


so here we are..
im in kedah during the 1st day of fasting.


practically, i am gdamn hungry and thirsty for God sake
but i managed to control it, and thats it!
the first fasting day was done fully..
felt so happy... :))


there is 29days to.
so chayo chayo! 


mode : happy :D


Salam Ramadhan

Flame of Disgust

A friend of a friend, 

That I once knew.

A love I have tried to mend.

I look at the sky so blue.

And remember what has passed.

Memories good and bad

Why has it come so fast.

A love that I once had.

Guys..

i just cant even get it..

why guys are being so unpredictable

dont be one of the jerks, please

the things is...

when one thing that already slip over your side before

and then.. now you getting it back

so can you please just be the nice one, the charming one, the one loveable one

but guys wont do that

when things were in front of them.. 

i mean by they were given chances for it..

can you guys just please take it

but dont waste it

and when they have been left out,

it comes to the time they ll regret for everything they have done..

OMG..

why guys are so unpredictable..

im too tired for all this.

i cant be with one of this thing so called " a man " anymore..

you guys made me sick with those


so please.. just leave me alone

mode: anger, disappointment

unhappy~

Tomorrow....

will be back to shah alam..

and i hated it so much

But..

i have to !!

urghhh!!

8.00am - off to shah alam

dem

mode: hatred

:: UnLucky :

maybe i wasnt that lucky for last semester

everythings are going down

luckily im still in with it

i felt so disgust and empty

lack of self-esteem and a very low self confidence

i felt out the giving up motion is in the air right now

my parents wasnt here with me

im too weak to be in those kind of situation

i needed them badly

BUT

 i have to determine

that nothing in this world is impossible

what i have to do is change my lifestyle, and struggle in it no matter how,what, where and why

i will do it

yes i do 

thats my promise to my beloved parents

if there is a will, God shall be with me

i wont repeat the same mistake

but will take everything to be a challenge in my life

ive choose to be in this way

so that is my duty to finish it up

determine

road to success to be a lawyer

i wish!

mode: self-determined

 

F**king Spain

damn it!!
oh my Gerrmans.......
i think thats the end of your journey..
you guys already played very well in beating other team..


but Spain beat you re up..
Mr Paul the octopus was right...


daymmm....


song long Germans.. will owez supporting you..


till then we meet again 5years later..


mode: sadness :(

WHY..........

the sadness came and haunted me

and why would that be

this is stupid. its total stupid

why am i supposed to be sad

why must i followed and feel the sadness

please! be away from me !

i hate to be like this...

this is total bullshytt

you are nothing to me in fact

instead of i kept in my thought 

that you re the finest one, the better one, the charming one

but all of that was my mind's playground

i would'nt or shouldnt be like this

Oh my.....

i hate myself

for being sucha stupid

~ not very happy

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A sad..sad.. day ( Goodbye To You... )

Of all the things I believe in
I just want to get it over with
tears from behind my eyes
but I do not cry
Counting the days that past me by

I've been searching deep down in my soul
Words that I'm hearing are starting to get old
Looks like I'm starting all over again
The last three years were just pretend and I say

Goodbye to you
Goodbye to everything I thought I knew
You were the one I love
The one thing that I tried to hold on to

I still get lost in your eyes
And it seems like I can't live a day without you
Closing my eyes till you chase my thoughts away
To a place where I am blinded by the light but it's not right

Goodbye to you
Goodbye to everything I thought I knew
You were the one I loved
The one thing that I tried to hold on to

Ohhh yeah
It hurts to want everything & nothing at the same time
I want whats yours and I want whats mine
I want you but I'm not giving in this time

Goodbye to you
Goodbye to everything I thought I knew
You were the one I loved
The one thing that I tried to hold on to
The one thing that I tried to hold on to

Goodbye to you
Goodbye to everything I thought I knew
You were the one I loved
The one thing that I tried to hold on to

We the stars fall and I lie awake
Your my shooting star 

Im Lovin iT !!

Flightless bird, american mouth

I was a quick wet boy, diving too deep for coins 
All of your street light eyes wide on my plastic toys 
Then when the cops closed the fair, I cut my long baby hair 
Stole me a dog-eared map and called for you everywhere 

Have I found you 
Flightless bird, jealous, weeping or lost you, american mouth 
Big pill looming 

Now I'm a fat house cat 
Nursing my sore blunt tongue 
Watching the warm poison rats curl through the wide fence cracks 
Pissing on magazine photos 
Those fishing lures thrown in the cold 
And clean blood of Christ mountain stream 

Have I found you 
Flightless bird, grounded, bleeding or lost you, american mouth 
Big pill stuck going down