Flame of Disgust

A friend of a friend, 

That I once knew.

A love I have tried to mend.

I look at the sky so blue.

And remember what has passed.

Memories good and bad

Why has it come so fast.

A love that I once had.

Guys..

i just cant even get it..

why guys are being so unpredictable

dont be one of the jerks, please

the things is...

when one thing that already slip over your side before

and then.. now you getting it back

so can you please just be the nice one, the charming one, the one loveable one

but guys wont do that

when things were in front of them.. 

i mean by they were given chances for it..

can you guys just please take it

but dont waste it

and when they have been left out,

it comes to the time they ll regret for everything they have done..

OMG..

why guys are so unpredictable..

im too tired for all this.

i cant be with one of this thing so called " a man " anymore..

you guys made me sick with those


so please.. just leave me alone

mode: anger, disappointment

unhappy~

Tomorrow....

will be back to shah alam..

and i hated it so much

But..

i have to !!

urghhh!!

8.00am - off to shah alam

dem

mode: hatred

:: UnLucky :

maybe i wasnt that lucky for last semester

everythings are going down

luckily im still in with it

i felt so disgust and empty

lack of self-esteem and a very low self confidence

i felt out the giving up motion is in the air right now

my parents wasnt here with me

im too weak to be in those kind of situation

i needed them badly

BUT

 i have to determine

that nothing in this world is impossible

what i have to do is change my lifestyle, and struggle in it no matter how,what, where and why

i will do it

yes i do 

thats my promise to my beloved parents

if there is a will, God shall be with me

i wont repeat the same mistake

but will take everything to be a challenge in my life

ive choose to be in this way

so that is my duty to finish it up

determine

road to success to be a lawyer

i wish!

mode: self-determined

 

F**king Spain

damn it!!
oh my Gerrmans.......
i think thats the end of your journey..
you guys already played very well in beating other team..


but Spain beat you re up..
Mr Paul the octopus was right...


daymmm....


song long Germans.. will owez supporting you..


till then we meet again 5years later..


mode: sadness :(

WHY..........

the sadness came and haunted me

and why would that be

this is stupid. its total stupid

why am i supposed to be sad

why must i followed and feel the sadness

please! be away from me !

i hate to be like this...

this is total bullshytt

you are nothing to me in fact

instead of i kept in my thought 

that you re the finest one, the better one, the charming one

but all of that was my mind's playground

i would'nt or shouldnt be like this

Oh my.....

i hate myself

for being sucha stupid

~ not very happy

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A sad..sad.. day ( Goodbye To You... )

Of all the things I believe in
I just want to get it over with
tears from behind my eyes
but I do not cry
Counting the days that past me by

I've been searching deep down in my soul
Words that I'm hearing are starting to get old
Looks like I'm starting all over again
The last three years were just pretend and I say

Goodbye to you
Goodbye to everything I thought I knew
You were the one I love
The one thing that I tried to hold on to

I still get lost in your eyes
And it seems like I can't live a day without you
Closing my eyes till you chase my thoughts away
To a place where I am blinded by the light but it's not right

Goodbye to you
Goodbye to everything I thought I knew
You were the one I loved
The one thing that I tried to hold on to

Ohhh yeah
It hurts to want everything & nothing at the same time
I want whats yours and I want whats mine
I want you but I'm not giving in this time

Goodbye to you
Goodbye to everything I thought I knew
You were the one I loved
The one thing that I tried to hold on to
The one thing that I tried to hold on to

Goodbye to you
Goodbye to everything I thought I knew
You were the one I loved
The one thing that I tried to hold on to

We the stars fall and I lie awake
Your my shooting star 

Im Lovin iT !!

Flightless bird, american mouth

I was a quick wet boy, diving too deep for coins 
All of your street light eyes wide on my plastic toys 
Then when the cops closed the fair, I cut my long baby hair 
Stole me a dog-eared map and called for you everywhere 

Have I found you 
Flightless bird, jealous, weeping or lost you, american mouth 
Big pill looming 

Now I'm a fat house cat 
Nursing my sore blunt tongue 
Watching the warm poison rats curl through the wide fence cracks 
Pissing on magazine photos 
Those fishing lures thrown in the cold 
And clean blood of Christ mountain stream 

Have I found you 
Flightless bird, grounded, bleeding or lost you, american mouth 
Big pill stuck going down

Oh Mee Gosh !! @_@

GERMAN v ARGENTINA

Wins 4-0 

Oh MeE GoShh !!

Happy!

happY!

YeaHH !!! 

~ ATTentioN ~

First of all

This was my second blog

the first blog was inactivated due to certain technical arose and was going to abolished it 

kindly do not open or write to the former blog

A Big Thank YOU !

Lil Vacay

Today - Saturday ( be back to Alor Star )

Now in Langkawi Island ( since last Wednesday )

Activities involved :

1) lepaking at Kuah

2) shopping at Pantai Chenang

3) bought few stuff - leggings,choco, rings, boxers, bob marley's hat, begs...... and so on.

4) stayed at abg amir and kak diana's cribs at taman kenari, Kuah. 

5) pasir tengkorak! this was an absolute beach thou it wasnt that big..but it was sucha a relaxing place to be with our family.

parties involved = Abah, mama, ayu, adli my love and me of course..

Ngeeee... @_@

this was the third times came by..

wished can be with my otha friends to be here...

thats for today.. my first blog ever since the first one.. =))